A week ago today, my grandpa passed away. Now, he had been saying for years that he didn't know why God still had him on this earth, as he was ready to join my grandma in heaven. And his death shouldn't be a shock to anyone - the man was 96 1/2 years old.
But even the expected brings unexpected emotions.
Friday morning, David and I loaded up the kids and headed up to Iowa, where we joined my family in Pella that evening for the visitation.
On the way to Pella, we discussed with Adele what had happened to Grandpa Great. She wasn't exactly close to him, but obviously knew him and understood that he was "Grandpa's daddy". My sweet perceptive little daughter wanted to give Grandpa a hug and tell him "I'm sorry your daddy died", but she couldn't do it and had me tell him instead. (Cue tears.)
The visitation was a really special time, as almost my entire extended family was there. We were split up into families and given an area of a large room, so that anyone who came could visit with who they wanted. We haven't all been together like that in a
very long time, and it was really neat to be flooded with memories and emotions of growing up and getting together with all of those family members for holidays.
After the visitation, we all headed to my Aunt Gloria's house, where we had a good Dutch meal that included summer sausage, jello, and almond bars. I
really enjoyed being all together again.
The next morning we headed back to Pella for the funeral, and I quickly learned that
emotional-times + little-sleep = even-more-emotions. My sisters and I had been asked to give the eulogy, so after the visitation we stayed up late writing it together. And seeing as how we couldn't even practice it without shedding tears, we knew we were in trouble for the actual service.
We had a nice family gathering before the main service began, and a few people shared some thoughts and memories about my grandpa. It was beautiful.
The actual funeral service was very meaningful as well. The pastor did an excellent job, and it was a great way to show respect and remembrance to my grandpa. Of course, many, many tears were shed. We barely got through the eulogy, and showed a lot of raw emotion as we reminisced my grandpa's life.
After the service we had a nice luncheon and then headed to the grave for the final gravesite service. It was very well done, and very...final. My grandpa was a very upstanding man. He was both proud and humble. Faithful. Honorable. Upright. Worthy of respect. From the visitation to the final gravesite service, everything seemed to represent my grandpa well, giving him the honor he so very much deserved.
I wasn't around my dad after my grandpa's death up until the visitation, even though I had talked to him and knew that he was grieving. But seeing him at the funeral was too much for my heart to bear. Because my dad experienced the unexpected emotions, even with the expected death.
You see, my dad had made the commitment to visit his dad in Pella every Sunday (except when he was out of town obviously) ever since my grandma died over 10 years ago. He was eventually joined by his brother Mark, and the two of them would take my grandpa out to lunch and sit around watching sports every Sunday afternoon together. That's a
lot of together time. And of course, that's not even mentioning the 50 years before my grandma died that my dad had his parents in his life. As David said, your parents are the one consistent thing in your life since your birth. And once they are gone, there is a void that can't be replaced.
So now there is this void that I am quite certain my dad is feeling - both in regards to his Sunday afternoons, and also simply in his life.
And for me, I feel some very sad emotions that a certain chapter of my life has been closed. Family get togethers has centered around my grandparents. With both of them gone, life has changed. I too, feel that void.
And while I am thrilled that he finally got to have his joyous reunion in heaven with my grandma, and I couldn't even selfishly wish to have one more day with him on earth...I will miss him.
At my high school graduation, with both Grandma and Grandpa
Thanksgiving Day at my parents' house, a few years back.
Grandpa meeting Adele at 6 weeks old
Visiting Grandpa with my dad on some of his Sundays
Grandpa with both Henry and Adele
Four men with good names - William Gosselink (Grandpa), Gregory William Gosselink (my dad),
Henry William Hille (my son), and Asher William Ford (Emily's son).
Thanksgiving Day last year - Grandpa with his grandkids.
Grandpa's four kids, just over a week ago. Mark, Gloria, Jerry, and Greg.
My last time with Grandpa, 6 weeks ago.